mcfarland (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} mcfarland) wrote,@ 2006-09-06 08:40:00 |
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uncertain
That is, uncertain WHICH mood I'm in exactly, at any given time recently...
This past weekend I found myself in a bout of depression, good ole thick depression. Gil was at her Dad's and had I known she was going be there, I wouldv'e tried to escape to Ischia for some early September beaching- attempted a last stab at summer. But instead I remained in Rome. Pippo and Ross were away too.
After two or three days of being seriously stewed, something mysterious happened. Fully expecting to wake up in the same mood I'd gone to sleep in, instead, I woke up happy, determined, even jazzed! I decided to attend to the list of various bureacratic and general house care things I've been procrastinating on. It was as if I dreamt something that made my head switch.
Then, last night I became frustrated, overwhelmed and anxious. Spread too thin between bureacratic responsibilities, being a Mom, being a girlfriend, being a friend, wanting to escape (costs money) and wanting to conserve money, having to get my shit togethor for this beginning school season....so I slept on the sofa, which is where I'd slept when I'd had the miraculous better mood switch last time. Instead, this time I woke up to my teeth grinding.
For escape I've been reading various web accounts of the Johnney Gosch-Bohemian Grove-Franklin affair. Then yesterday I bought a book about Opus Dei.
I discovered that not only does the USA NOT keep a body count of dead Iraqi civilians (or so they state) but also that IMPOSSIBLY they say they do not keep a running count of military deserters and/or people that were given dishonorable or less than honorable discharges/ prison sentences for changing their minds because they couldn't cope with having to kill people anymore. Ha! The military also says that most people awol NOT because they can't embrace any military moral but because they have committed crimes. Just one more twist, of course. IF they desert they HAVE committed a crime, so that MUST be their reasoning, right? ( No, wrong, huh.) I'd like a count of ex military recruits that have abandoned their military careers because it gives me hope.
That is, uncertain WHICH mood I'm in exactly, at any given time recently...
This past weekend I found myself in a bout of depression, good ole thick depression. Gil was at her Dad's and had I known she was going be there, I wouldv'e tried to escape to Ischia for some early September beaching- attempted a last stab at summer. But instead I remained in Rome. Pippo and Ross were away too.
After two or three days of being seriously stewed, something mysterious happened. Fully expecting to wake up in the same mood I'd gone to sleep in, instead, I woke up happy, determined, even jazzed! I decided to attend to the list of various bureacratic and general house care things I've been procrastinating on. It was as if I dreamt something that made my head switch.
Then, last night I became frustrated, overwhelmed and anxious. Spread too thin between bureacratic responsibilities, being a Mom, being a girlfriend, being a friend, wanting to escape (costs money) and wanting to conserve money, having to get my shit togethor for this beginning school season....so I slept on the sofa, which is where I'd slept when I'd had the miraculous better mood switch last time. Instead, this time I woke up to my teeth grinding.
For escape I've been reading various web accounts of the Johnney Gosch-Bohemian Grove-Franklin affair. Then yesterday I bought a book about Opus Dei.
I discovered that not only does the USA NOT keep a body count of dead Iraqi civilians (or so they state) but also that IMPOSSIBLY they say they do not keep a running count of military deserters and/or people that were given dishonorable or less than honorable discharges/ prison sentences for changing their minds because they couldn't cope with having to kill people anymore. Ha! The military also says that most people awol NOT because they can't embrace any military moral but because they have committed crimes. Just one more twist, of course. IF they desert they HAVE committed a crime, so that MUST be their reasoning, right? ( No, wrong, huh.) I'd like a count of ex military recruits that have abandoned their military careers because it gives me hope.
